A Weak Moment

Trying to confess without tears...

Many moments, even most moments I am strong & unafraid. But not this moment. I had fears & questions & decided to do an internet search of CF. Isaac has very loose stools & while this could be my diet (I can't say I have had a good or even mostly healthy one this week) I know this is a "symptom" & my mind is stuck on the subject.

The Dr. says we will do a sweat test at 2 months. That's not long but moments like these make it seem a lot longer.

Say a prayer for me & my boy when you think of us :)

God, I know that Isaac is yours and I am honored to be his mom while we are on this earth. I have never asked that you promise good health...I recognize that YOU know what's best & I don't expect our lives to be exempt of tough times. I do ask that Isaac's health be wonderful but that pales in comparison to him having a heart after your heart, having love, joy and wisdom; help me to focus on the things that will matter eternally. Give me faith when I have none. Grow me into the mom who teaches her children with wisdom and guides them to be faithful, successful, resourceful, and confident in their identities in You and You alone, never to be victims of their circumstances or even health or motivated by the world's standards. Give me wisdom, empathy and words to share with others who are hurting because I know you have allowed this in our lives for a reason and I pray that you use it for your glory. I love you, Father; thank you for hearing my prayers...

"For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, works for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory." (2 Corinthians 4:17)