I have a few minutes to myself & so I thought I would take a deep breath & think for a few minutes. Having a new baby on the way makes me realize how far my first baby has come...which then reminds me of all I'm going to go through again.
I have been reading about how so many mindsets are determined based on a child's infant-toddler years & I am overwhelmed with the responsibility of parenting. Well, that & I have been trying to reevaluate my methods in order to have a happier mom & daughter. It's just wild to me because I can remember turning 4. I remember feeling so big. I remember having on a frilly dress (why did they do that to us back then?) & Mom staying outside so long tying balloons on the mailbox that I kept going down to see them & getting in trouble for going outside in my frilly dress.
And I want Neena (& new babe) to have wonderful memories. And be responsible. And obedient. And fun, loving, smart, beautiful, Godly, talented, etc. I have to come to grips with the fact that I can't create a person--that's God's job. When Neena was born, I was so overwhelmed with the fact that the new baby in the room "belonged to me" because I really just felt like she was God's. I didn't do anything to create her. (Ok...you could give me a little credit in a couple areas...) But it was so cool to have her cry & to be the one who wanted to comfort her and furthermore, to be the best one at doing it.
She has grown up so much! And, I have to admit...she's a Daddy's girl now. She prefers his kisses for her booboos, to sit by him at dinner, to snuggle with him. I always wanted her to be Daddy's girl, though, because, let's face it...
A. Her Daddy is totally awesome.
B. I was very much Mommy's girl b/c my dad was very quiet even though we always had a special bond. But I was always in awe of girls who were just closer to their dad's. I guess I picture her gleaning a wonderful picture of her Heavenly Father by being "Daddy's girl."
C. It's really good for teenage years to have a strong relationship with Daddy.
D. If I were Neena, I would definitely be Daddy's girl. He's just fantastic.
But I have to admit...it does make me a little jealous. I am working on that :)
Chad & I have been married for six years :) I've been in love with him for twelve years. That's almost half my life. I have been reminiscing a lot about how blessed I am. I couldn't ask for anything more.
I have been reading about how so many mindsets are determined based on a child's infant-toddler years & I am overwhelmed with the responsibility of parenting. Well, that & I have been trying to reevaluate my methods in order to have a happier mom & daughter. It's just wild to me because I can remember turning 4. I remember feeling so big. I remember having on a frilly dress (why did they do that to us back then?) & Mom staying outside so long tying balloons on the mailbox that I kept going down to see them & getting in trouble for going outside in my frilly dress.
And I want Neena (& new babe) to have wonderful memories. And be responsible. And obedient. And fun, loving, smart, beautiful, Godly, talented, etc. I have to come to grips with the fact that I can't create a person--that's God's job. When Neena was born, I was so overwhelmed with the fact that the new baby in the room "belonged to me" because I really just felt like she was God's. I didn't do anything to create her. (Ok...you could give me a little credit in a couple areas...) But it was so cool to have her cry & to be the one who wanted to comfort her and furthermore, to be the best one at doing it.
She has grown up so much! And, I have to admit...she's a Daddy's girl now. She prefers his kisses for her booboos, to sit by him at dinner, to snuggle with him. I always wanted her to be Daddy's girl, though, because, let's face it...
A. Her Daddy is totally awesome.
B. I was very much Mommy's girl b/c my dad was very quiet even though we always had a special bond. But I was always in awe of girls who were just closer to their dad's. I guess I picture her gleaning a wonderful picture of her Heavenly Father by being "Daddy's girl."
C. It's really good for teenage years to have a strong relationship with Daddy.
D. If I were Neena, I would definitely be Daddy's girl. He's just fantastic.
But I have to admit...it does make me a little jealous. I am working on that :)
Chad & I have been married for six years :) I've been in love with him for twelve years. That's almost half my life. I have been reminiscing a lot about how blessed I am. I couldn't ask for anything more.
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